Poetry

Was just a child, when I had to work Didn't know you were wrong, I was wrong Looked up to you, but never should have Anyway I have taught myself I'm exhausted being a child, Cause I had to act as an adult I'm exhausted as a grown-up Cause you took away my childhood You still give me work You expect me to be perfect And you are not flawless  And you broke me apart Still, I love you, cause I did since I was born Still, I can't stop loving you, cause I was an innocent child Still can't hate you, cause I always always loved you But I do hate me for letting myself go through it Are you my guardian? I doubt Are you an angel? I doubt Are you my mother? You are I am exhausted being your child I am exhausted being a trophy I am exhausted to satisfy you I am exhausted of explanations I am exhausted of everything you did I am exhausted of your mentality I am exhausted that I have to force myself grow up and teach you what you should have taught me I am............... Exhausted...

My question would always be, why couldn't you love me? I know you were my friend, and I loved it when we spent time together  But why couldn't you take a step forward and love me more?  When you asked me to hold my hand  What did you mean? When you took me out What did you mean? When you laughed with me What did you mean? I know I would love you forever from the moment I saw you. I know you loved others and never saw my face. It hurts when I see you with someone It hurts when I can't convey my feelings It hurts when you ignore me for others Yet, my thoughts revolve around you. Now I know you can't choose the person you love And when you love, you immerse yourself deeper than oceans. I don't know where my feelings are But I am sure you just need to ignite to see the ball of fire.

Ahh...... it's painful Ahh...... it's terrible My tooth is aching Is it my food?  Is it my chocolate? Are there cavities? How they came to me? A lot of relevant questions... Again...... it's paining well Again...... it's intolerable I do brush my teeth, always twice a day But why, why, why, why my molars pain.....? The hole in my molars are bigger than those in hell Maybe this cavity is creating a hell, a universe Either way it is painful..... I can't chew my snacks I can't talk out loud I can't do anything, cause it pains so much.... I tried hot water I tried eucalyptus I tried everything, but solution was to take it out Ahh.... It pains dang dang.....

I am falling I am failing But without you, I would be dying. I learnt it I got this But without you, I would be crawling. You taught me how to stand on my toes You taught me how to master my life Yet here I am, your worst student I can improve and you know that You trust me, even though I doubt you The way you do things is exceptional and the way I think it is disastrous But I have learned a lot from the journey The journey that we still continue I am yet to learn a lot from your mind. 

It's raining, it's raining, it's raining all the day It's monsoon and damp everywhere...... The Cold breeze touches my feet and I feel so light It lightens the burden you carry all along. I hated rains, because I lived warmth. But now I realise they are also pretty at times..... Rain is clustered solitudes. It brings drops, each alone. Yet we say its rain, cause we see the cluster together. I no more feel like damp clothes, when it rains. Rather I allowed it to touch my core....... Tiny drops from air makes me warm and I know its an IRONY..........

I got ready for the new school. I got into the new-new clothes. I got into the big gate of the school I've joined and I was confused I was darker than the rest of the girls But that was one thought inside my little brain Those girls came to me and asked my name so that they can invite me to their gangs. I did not join any of them I did not know why I did that But soon I realized that it was a bad decision; when I get my Games period on track I have nobody to play with. I did not even talk to anyone and I know that is no one's fault and it was my poor choice Then came a girl who wandered like me Who was not a fresher, but a loner like me I went to chat with her and realized that she's been alone for a great some time She told me those girls are "no innocent" children, even I felt the same from beginning Thus we made a pact of friendship at the end of conversation, so that both are happy in the games period Another girl comes to our group.  She is the head of the po...

 Usually, I am a very calm person, but there are times when I feel immense anger towards something. These are normal most of the times, but sometimes one needs to understand others whom are facing your anger wrath. All my life I have always chosen to be rational and reasonable. Most of the people around me are not thinking like me and they are more irrational it seems. My parents, both of them are irrational but in totally different ways. My dad is a narcissist. So, let us not talk about him. Any anger about him is all reasonable. Let us talk about my mother. She is really a sweet person and I am so proud to be my mother's daughter. But that does not justify her unreasonableness. She won't take reasoning as an important thing in life. For her, she just needs things to be done. For example, she is willing to take any risk to do anything for me, but she won't ask why should she do that. Sometimes, it is not really tough, when you know the reason of something. Also, she does n...